Wednesday, December 29, 2010

The Lazy blogger

Because I am feeling lazy and yet neglectful, I am filling out this form my friend Tabatha posted on facebook about getting to know people. I realized my blog is school heavy, so I thought this would be a nice little get to know Allie sheet.
1. What time did you get up this morning? 12ish
2. How do you like your steak? Medium; I hunger for the blood of innocent animals.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1.
4. What is your favorite TV show? Futurama, Bleach, Kekkaishi, The Conan O'Brien Show.
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Somewhere full of trees.
6. What did you have for breakfast? I've ate breakfast all day today...technically, an avocado and Mexican cheese omelette.
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican
8. What foods do you dislike? Pickles. They are pure evil.
9. Favorite Place to Eat? Eh, it changes, but right now it is the little Mexican restaurant that opened next to the bar in Kelseyville. Carnitas = <3
10. Favorite dressing? Ranch or poppyseed.
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? 07 civic ex. How I love it.
12. What are your favorite clothes? As I got dressed for a Mormon wedding today, I realized all of my shirts show off my boobs or are in some way inappropriate. This made it difficult to get dressed. Anyway, I like clothes that are a little off beat--either punky or hippie ish. And boob centric, apparently. No wonder I had so many guy friends in high school.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? France, Greece, Spain, Tokyo--everywhere.
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Depends on how cynical I feel that day.
15. Where would you want to retire? Somewhere with lots of cats.
16. Favorite time of day? Sunset and when the stars come out.
17. Where were you born? Ukiah, California.
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Curling, because it is not a sport.
19. Who do you think will not tag you back? I'm not on facebook!
20. Person you expect to tag you back first? I'm still not on facebook.
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? Not on facebook.
22. Bird watcher? I watch my cat kill birds. Because I hate them.
23. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night.
24. Pets? Cat and some fish (they live at separate houses).
25. Any new and exciting news that you'd like to share? I got straight A's. I have new fish friends. Good times, good times.
26. What did you want to be when you were little? A cat doctor (NOT a veterinarian), a princess, a volcanologist. Practical things.
27. What is your best childhood memory? Meeting my best friend in the lunch line and bottle feeding my kitten.
28. Are you a cat or dog person? Cat, if it wasn't obvious.
29. Are you married? No.
30. Always wear your seat belt? Yes, because my car screams at me if I don't.
31. Been in a car accident? I haven't.
32. Any pet peeves? When people don't press the clear button when they are done using the microwave. People who say ASAP as "A sap."
33. Favorite pizza topping? Pineapple.
34. Favorite Flower? Orchids.
35. Favorite ice cream? Cookies n cream
36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Tacobell
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Once...I don't like to talk about it.
38. From whom did you get your last email? Gosh, who e-mails anymore with facebook?
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Chanel, Manolo Blahnik, Christian Louboutin.
40. Do anything spontaneous lately? I randomly ran into my friends at a gas station. I don't think this counts as spontaneous, but whatever.
41. Like your job? Being a student sucks mostly.
42. Broccoli? YES.
43. What was your favorite vacation? Mmm, the one I took with my mom to Monterey after she had her surgery.
44. Last person you went out to dinner with? Mom.
45. What are you listening to right now? Final Fantasy 14 battle music.
46. What is your favorite color? Pink
47. How many tattoos do you have? 2
48. Coffee drinker? When I drive somewhere in the morning.
49. How many children do you have? 0. Thank. God.
50. What are your plans for today? Went to friend's wedding, watched a movie, now sleepy time.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

GFAJ-1 and Capella

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This is Mono Lake. It lies in the middle of a barren expanse of desert near the California-Nevada border. It has a salinity that shifts back and forth between two and three times higher than the average salinity of the ocean. The primary life that exists in this extreme environment is brine shrimp and alkali flies; migratory birds also frequent the lake, providing a vital resting stop on their trip down south.

This lake has become one of the most important bodies of water in the world because of something that is nanometers in size that breaks one of the key rules of life on Earth. Until now, as we understood it, life was thought to center around six key elements: hydrogen, oxygen, carbon, nitrogen, sulfur and phosphorous. A bacteria discovered in oxygen absent mud, named GFAJ-1, was found to use arsenic, which is chemically similar to phosphorus, in the backbone of it's DNA rather than phosphorous. Arsenic is poisonous to life because of its ability to mimic phosphorous leads to disruption of metabolic pathways.

I know--this is very sciencey. But this bacteria has just changed our definition of life. Take a moment to appreciate this by thinking about everything you know about math, such as two plus two equals four, and try to convince yourself that there will ever be a time when it doesn't.















I know, right? Kinda mind boggling. This little bacteria is breaking all the rules...those rules may never have existed in the first place. GFAJ-1 has taught us that life outside our planet may be different from us in ways we can't even conceive of yet. This microbe just opened the door to the very real possibility of life on another world.

In honor of GFAJ-1 and all the knowledge its discovery has bestowed upon us, I have written a brief story. I'll probably do more with it in the future, but right now I'm too busy panicking about finals to focus on too much.

Capella

The lights of the planet faded into the distance as the rocket climb higher and higher into the deep. The haze of the atmosphere began to dissolve and it too faded to blackness. Before Capella's eyes lay the boundless elegance of the universe. Stars twinkled like smiles thousands of light years away, as though they were welcoming back home.

She pressed her face closer to the viewing window of their craft, hoping that if she got close enough to the wonders of the outside she would understand them, be able to shape them with her hands. "We are passing your constellation, Capella," Einath called to her from the pilot's chair.

She cocked her head to see past him. In the distance she could see the golden glow Auriga the Charioteer. "I believe you are the northern most one?" he said, gesturing to the most brilliant in the system. "Yes," she said, smiling. "And you are the southern."

Many minutes passed as they both gazed at the stars they had been named for; how appropriate it seemed now as they rushed past them at speeds only light ever exceeded that they were picked for this voyage. Eventually, the glow of their stars was consumed by the darkness and new ones took their place in front of their eyes: Taurus, Orion, Monoceros, Hydra and finally came Libra, the scales--the place they had been sent to.

In the distance loomed a massive glowing red orb named Gliese 581. The red dwarf was only two thirds the mass of her home star and was significantly dimmer, but it was a marvel to her. Little flair jumped off its surface and twirled in the air like dancers before drifting back to the surface. "We are here," Einath said as the craft slung shot past the star and head toward a large, blue planet. "Gliese 581g."

"They are so similar, aren't they?" Capella pondered. "More so than we had even hoped. What do you think it is like down there?" She had to restrain herself from pressing her nose to the glass.

"The same as the pictures," Einath said dryly.

"Of course," she answered, perhaps a little sharper than she had intended. "But what do you think it's like? Do you think it will feel like home?"

"No."

"That's it? Just plain 'No'? I swear sometimes you can be so dull."

Einath considered this for a moment, "I wasn't aware I was expected to elaborate on my answer."

She sighed. "That is how conversation works. I talk then you talk and then I comment on what you said and so on."

She was met with silence.

"You are hopeless."

He sighed. "I do hate to interrupt your philosophical ponderings about the planet we're about to land on, but I would appreciate a few minutes of silence as I try to land this multi-billion dollar space craft without killing all of us."



This literally ends where I started falling asleep last night, I hope you enjoyed it and, like I said before, I'll probably work more on it in the coming weeks.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Holly Jolly Insanity

It's that lovely time of year again. Inside your house, your family is gathered around the TV for Rudolph and his bioluminescent nose. The radio insists on playing a hideously outdated or, even worse, a horrible "updated" christmas song about sleighs and bells and baby animals until you have to turn it off for fear of vomitting due to cuteness or before you develop diabetes. Stores have "the hottest gifts" for that "special someone" at "super low prices." Your credit card company has to hire extra goons for those post season collection calls--remember, every time you exceed your limit and then are forced to take out another credit card, that band dressed like pirates from TV writes a song about your credit score (I like to imagine they do anyway. The song I play in my head drowns out the sound of my finanaces' death rattle).

Thanksgiving passed just like any other one before it at my house--lots of small children running like mad things, crying (thankfully from an actual baby this time rather than a metaphoric one), too much eating, and my eventual energy crash as soon as all the sharks--I mean, the rest of my family--went home as soon as they had deavoured every last morsel of flesh that clung to the carcass in our kitchen that was at one point in time called "turkey." The only holiday I actually wanted to celebrate was Black Friday; not because I care about buying people presents, but because I wanted to buy ME a present. But, unfortunately, poor people are not allowed to shop (death rattle). Besides, who actually wants to get Lion Kinged at Wall-Mart just to get some toys which will likely give your children lead poisioning?

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Hauntingly similar, no?

Consumerism is frightening during December and the end of Novemeber. Everyone loses their minds when they see those big "SALE" signs. Something about getting bargains brings out the base instincts of people. Suddenly, we are all starving and that sale is a big, juicy steak at a "reasonable" price.

I think it is best to remember in these crazy times that the best gifts you get during the holidays are free or home made.

Everyone already knows what to get you anyway (Well, your guy friends do anyway). I have heard it's appropriate for every single holiday.

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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Allie Gonzales and the Part 1 Finale

If you didn't know, I love Harry Potter.

I first read Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone when I was nine years old. My mom took me to the Lake County Library for the first time (at least the first time I remember having ever gone to that smelly place). I discovered they had a room full of books for kids--a whole room! I walked around in there for a long time (probably about half an hour) until I stumbled upon a brightly colored book with an odd pastel drawn cover. It had big golden shiny letters reading "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone" emblazoned over the picture of a boy riding on a flying broomstick trying to catch a little yellow ball with wings. In the back ground there was a forest, a unicorn, a castle and a three headed dog. If you're still having a hard time picturing the cover here it is:

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What child would have the ability to resist this kind of fantasy? I can't remember a time I didn't (and still don't) long for magic to be real. Needless to say, I took an instant liking to the book. It was the story of an orphaned child who lived in a closet under the stairs, suffering the cruel whims of his elephantine cousin Dudley. When he turned eleven, he got a letter (delivered by owl, of course) that informed him he was in fact a wizard and had been admitted into Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. A dear friend of mine once admitted that when she turned eleven, she stayed up at night waiting for her letter from Hogwarts; when it didn't come, she wasn't sad because she thought that it all might still be real--she was just a muggle.

I read every Harry Potter book from the time they came out. Eventually, the books were released in such a way that the age Harry was in the book I was in real life. I know, it sounds silly, but it made me feel that much more connected to that world. It was impossible for me to not imagine my friends playing the role of Harry's and the people I didn't like as the psuedo-villains and real villains in the stories. My friends and I read the books together; we'd call each other up and discuss for long hours what was going to happen next. We'd share our outrage together when a character we loved got killed (Why, Sirius? WHY FRED!!?).

I grew up with Harry Potter and he grew up with me. I think I will always love the story and the characters. I actually look forward to my children reading them and being able to pass down my love of literature and Harry Potterness with them.

SO, yes, I was one of those weird people outside the theater at midnight Thursday, dressed all in Death Eater black and trying to stave off frostbite in my nose and toes, with my mom. When I looked up at the poster:

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It reminded me of being in the library all those years ago and how much I've changed in all that time. I used to be a happy, carefree little kids. Now, I am a sleep deprived college student who spends the majority of my free time doing derivatives and writing papers--no more time for fantasy and magic. When I read The Deathly Hallows, I cried when it was over because it was like putting a period on the end of my childhood (also Hedwig died. That was a low blow). I graduated that year. I moved away that year. I fell in love (and got my heart broken). I "grew up."

When I watched The Deathly Hallows Part 1, it was like being a kid again. I didn't feel silly for shedding a tear for a dead owl I didn't know--it's Hedwig, after all. It was like stepping back in time to that magical state of childhood where all this could be real--I'm just a muggle.

You may call me nerdy and over sentimental. Well, I do not care. I will always love Harry Potter because, to me, it represents the most magical kingdom of them all--childhood.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Lazy

If you haven't noticed, I've been a bit of a slacker the last few weeks. Life just seems to get more chaotic as the end of the semester approaches. I used to have time to be creative and relax, but lately all I have time to do is calculus homework (and I'm barely keeping up with that). This is an account of a field trip I took in my Biology class in October.

I was required to meander into Montgomery Woods Tuesday to "observe nature" as part of my Bio class. An acorn nearly murdered me as I climbed up the gentle incline of the one hill in the park. It went a little something like this:

  1. I get out of the car and am immediately sorry as the temperature is around negative 63 and I have (foolishly) only worn a hoodie and neglected to bring my Nike's (Coach sneakers are cool for hiking, right?)
  2. Learned some terribly interesting things about redwoods (well, I would have, if I hadn't been focusing on sending blood to my toes to keep from developing frostbite.)
  3. Coach sneakers are not cool for hiking. Especially not canvas sneakers that absorb all the free moisture from the forest the day after a rain storm (we got eight whole inches) and which is currently enshrouded in fog, which apparently is like a rain storm in the redwoods. Lovely.
  4. Walking in moist air uphill makes me breath as loud as an angry walrus. Everyone asks me if I am okay. I would have answered them, but my tertiary bronchioles were busy trying not to explode.
  5. I need to look at the ground when I walk because, get this, oak trees like to grow around redwoods. Oak trees drop slippery leaves. And acorns. Acorns are round; round things roll. Round things roll better when they are on a moist incline. I am clumsy at the best of times.
  6. I am heaving along, my socks now completely saturated and making a delightful "squish" sound with every step I take, when I am distracted by one of my darling classmates talking. I take my eyes off the ground for a moment to respond so I don't look like I dislike eye contact. As I step forward, I feel my right foot slipping.
  7. I am in some sort of half-split position, trying to sort out why this is happening. Several people are laughing at me. Awesome.
  8. I fall over to escape going into a deeper split and realize I am on a hill, so I roll about ten feet down the it before being stopped by a large rock in the road. More people are laughing.
  9. Properly humiliated, I pop to feet and squish my way back up the hill, my face aglow with the redness of retardedness.
What did I learn from this experience? Chiefly, Coach shoes are not meant for hiking. Secondly, Mother Nature is a crazy bitch who wants to kill me with acorns.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Saturday Disk Purging

I was going through some old files I had on a flash drive from forever ago (something I hate doing because most of my files are mediocre at best) and I happened upon this short story thingy I never finished. I'm posting all I wrote on here. Let me know what you think of it (I plan to keep writing it now that I found it).

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It was a sunny day; nothing more remarkable could be said of that Wednesday for is was average and dull in every other way. There was no particular zest to it—after all, it was a Wednesday. There was no wind to speak of or clouds to streak the sky; there was just the unbearable pounding of the sun upon the already parched earth.

It was on this day that Haven ventured out of her house for the first time in nearly two years. She hesitated at the threshold of the door to her single wide trailer. She placed one ashen white foot on the sandy ground. A shriek stuck in her throat with a profound “Uheau!” It had been so long since she felt the unsettling sensation of sand between her toes that she didn’t know if she could continue forward.

She drew in a deep breath; all of the muscles in her body tensed up as she planted her second foot firmly on the shale. It took all of her power to keep from jumping back inside, but she was determined to conquer her long standing fear. With an olympian sigh, she propelled her whole body forward; for the first time in nearly twenty-four months she was exposed to the sun.

Her body seemed alien to her in this light; indoors she saw herself as healthy, with rosy skin and vibrant blue eyes. Now she saw herself as others did—drained, almost cyanotic, with brittle skin; her eyes were watery and washed out, no longer even a shade of blue; they were instead a disconcerting and stark grey. All that remained the same was her hair; even in this harsh light it was the same unmistakable raven tone.

As she stood in the sun, she wondered how she had let things get so far out of her control.

She was twenty-five when she had moved into darkness (the day after the incident). She had forgotten how bright the sun could truly shine, how her body could glisten like it was faceted with a thousand precious gems. The only dark spots on her were the sickly purple scars on the palms of her hands.

It was the day of the winter solstice; the air was still and heavy with the scent of fresh rain on city pavement. Haven sat in her usual table at El Teatro, her favorite bistro. For her table she could see all the people passing on the sidewalk huddle together, hoping to escape the biting chill of the atmosphere. She cast a tentative glance at her wrist watch and realized that she was running late.

She gathered up her equipment--her purse, her laptop, and a tattered brown leather brief case--and dashed out to hail a taxi. Everything had come down to this one day, this final testing. Could the cure really be so close? She shook her head in disbelief as she slid into the damp and putrid smelling back seat of the cab.

"J and S Pharmaceuticals," she commanded.

As they pulled away from the curb, it began raining again. She watched, with a high degree of amusement, as people scurried and squealed as they became saturated with big drops of water. The ride seemed to take less time than usual today, which she found odd for time always seemed to snail buy on Wednesdays.

She ran into the large entrance hall of her company. She flashed her security pass to the receptionist and, practically sliding on the marble floor, hit the stairs. She couldn't stand the cramped feeling of the elevator. The stairs were much better decorated anyway; she delighted in the carved sickle moons on the steps. They seemed so odd to be found in a drug company.

She reached the fifth basement floor--the main laboratory--before anyone else had arrived. Carefully and methodically, she set up the experiment; first, she picked out three infected mice and put them inside a new cage. They scampered around blindly, bumping into each other and sometimes the cage itself. One had resigned itself to the lying in its food tray. She withdrew on of seven sterile large bore needles and began to hang the IV bag she had stashed in the cooler the night before. There was no indicative markings on the bag other than a single word--"White."

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

13:30 to Mars


So, I like the band 30 Seconds to Mars.

And, no it's not just because Jared Leto is gorgeous (it doesn't hurt though).

As I was trying to reinvigorate my ancient iPod (the first one ever made with color, btw, that weighs like 20 times as much as my iTouch), I found all my super old downloads from their original album ("30 Seconds to Mars"). It has a lot of good songs, but my favorite will always be "Buddha for Mary." If you haven't heard this song, I'm putting up a video of it below. Don't be weirded out by the first little bit; it changes a lot around 1:05.

I know, it's a little creepy, but I love the way it sounds. I can still remember the first time I listened to it in high school.

As I was scanning youtube for 30 Seconds to Mars musics videoes, I stumbled upon the video for "From Yesterday." I remember thinking, "Hm, this is...interesting," when I watched it a loooooong time ago. Then I noticed that they had "the full length" version of the video, which is a staggering 13 minutes and 30 seconds long (oh, how clever).

If you have the spare time and mental fortitude to watch this video, it's below. Following it will be everything that popped into my head at the corresponding time of the video. Compare notes with me (and try not to pee your pants).

So here's what I thought of this "short film."

  1. :10--Wow, that is a seriously irritating flute sound
  2. :23--OMG, that is a scarrrry dragon (or do I mean sound effect?)
  3. :43--what the hell is wrong with that guy's voice? Srsly, calm down.
  4. 1:03-1:10--I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU ARE SAYINGGGG.
  5. 1:12--For real, is the understandable portion of this video going to have Chinese subtitles?
  6. 1:25--Oh, I see, they are in a mental institution for stylish bands.
  7. 3:30--I didn't know time travel changed what clothes you were wearing.
  8. 3:50--Oh, hey the actual song is starting.
  9. 4:16--Oh man! Somebody forgot to tell Jared that his guyliner isn't waterproof.
  10. 4:49--You're being way too cavalier about seeing death.
  11. 5:16--Ugh, really, more Chinese? I hope bizarro voice isn't in it.
  12. 5:45--He is.
  13. 6:00--How does that little kid from like 600BC know 30 Seconds to Mars? Does Jared Leto really have that much money that little kids just wanna be his friend? Also, why are grown men friends with a little kid?
  14. 6:38--Two subtitle types in one scene? Say whhhhhat.
  15. 7:11--Oh, yeah. This is a music video. I almost forgot.
  16. 7:34--I do love a good spin.
  17. 7:39--Don't feel bad; sleeves are hard. You'll get it next time.
  18. 7:46--This video suddenly is more interesting to me.
  19. 7:50--Now it is not.
  20. 8:26--I can't describe how hard I am lol'ing right now.
  21. 9:08--Does money make you a ninja?
  22. 9:19--Laughing so hard, my stomach hurts.
  23. 9:24--Oh, stop, please! I can't breath.
  24. 9:29--Is 30 Seconds to Mars killing people? Is that legal?
  25. 9:35--God, this song really gets in the way, man.
  26. 9:41--Oh, look. It's "Eyes Wide Shut."
  27. 9:56--Now my stomach hurts for a different reason.
  28. 10:09--The green goblin has been hard up for work after Spider Man.
  29. 10:58--"You guys wanna go get milkshakes now we're done battling to the death?"
  30. 11:14--WTF? That's where it ends?
  31. 11:15--13:30--Credits. :(

End take on this "film"--This is a good song, but seriously--how much money did you spend on this video? China. Costumes. Make-up. Extras. Stunt people. Camera people. Sound people. I mean, okay, yeah, it is a kinda a cool concept and I guess they get points for creativity, and I can respect that. I also like most of the costumes and sets and all the visual symbolism. But it comes off a little jokey in some places, rather than like cool and mysterious. I still like 30 Seconds to Mars a lot (even if they're sound has changed a bit over time), but I think that this video tries way too hard. The shorter version is much better.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Ones and Zeroes

SO, I know it has been a ridiculously long time since I've posted any fiction on here. I've been so busy with doing homework for my English class, writing has become a bit of bother. But, today I found some time in between coloring pictures of photosynthesis and doing calculus homework to sit down at the computer and crank out some writing. 3 hours later, I realized I had wrote 50 pages about a rather small event in the plot of this story (Halcyon). After some editing, I got it down to about 20, so about a whole "chapter" or episode.

I'm posting about the first four or five pages of the section titled "Ones and Ceroes". It's told from the perspective of my favorite character, Cero, so I hope you enjoy it.

Ones and Ceroes

Cero

He stands before me shaking like a leaf. Even in his own imagination he is pale and scrawny, like some fragile creature who's just been exposed to the light for the first time. His hands are balled up into fists at his sides, as though they might be of some use against me here.

“Child,” I say, bored of watching him squirm like an bug pinned to a board, “just take my hand. This is all very tedious.”

His eyes flash with some emotion I can no longer discern; Halcyian emotions have always been difficult for me to read. He relaxes his hands and lets his shoulders slump; he is defeated. He reaches for me hesitantly, as though I may turn back into the snake. Finally, the last of his resolve dissipates, and he places his hand in mine.

I have to steady myself with a deep breath as his essence envelopes me; it is an empty comfort because I haven't a body to make respirate. He gives a small shudder when he inhales without his body's consent. How many times has my breath been his? I can not help but roll my eyes. “What makes you think I want to pull the strings on that meat puppet?” Then leave. “And wander bodiless with the wind for another millennium? No, thank you. You're body suits me just fine...for now. Even if it does smell like the pier at low tide.”

His muscles around his temples tense and some small veins pulsate in his neck. I seem to remember that this means he is angry with me. His body wheezes out a laugh he tries to stifle. When I laugh through him he hits the s's too hard, a habit I had adopted for my manifested state, which he finds particularly repulsive. I force another through his lips, despite his many efforts to keep it suppressed. It is like scraping metal against metal to make his voice mine; I forgot how hard using vocal chords could be, especially when the vessel rejects me.

His face twists in a strangely familiar pattern of muscle contractions. Ah, here is a face I know! Hatred. I cannot help but smile as I feel his hostility seep out of him. The more adrenaline that hits his blood stream, the stronger the enjoyment becomes for me. I can feel myself fortified. His emotion, however, makes him perspire something fierce. I wince as I am once more assaulted by his scent. Low tide isn't quite the accurate description for it; it's more like a dank cave full of creeping moss and fungi, yet there is the smell of brine. It's rather nauseating, to be honest, but it is a call to me. I can feel it pulling at me the moment it hits the air, as though it is permeating my skin.

“Come on,” I say, trying to quell the hunger rising in my stomach, “I want to take you somewhere.” I stride forward confidently, dragging him behind me like an anchor. He is still in the stupor of this place. Off in the distance, I can hear Aramia laughing loudly with her consort. They make a truly dreadful pair, but if any two beings have ever deserved each other it is them.

My load seems to have gotten significantly heavier. I turn around to see that Hylen is now being dragged on his stomach, his tongue lolling out like a moron, his eyes glazed over like a corpse. A trail of spit drips down his face; as the droplets slide off, he turns them to butterflies and his eyes focus briefly, flashing with some childish feeling I care not to interpret. I pull him harder, but he seems only to become heavier. He is now making grass grow in a circle around him and when I tug him he lets out this sad little wail and grips the grass with an iron resolve.

“Oh, yes, it's all so delightful,” I say mockingly. “Sadly, as entertaining as it is to stand around watching you dribble on yourself, we've other matters to attend to.”

He puckers his lips and makes this hideous gurgle, like a pack of angry screeching birds. He is doing something I think is called whining. I do not have time for sympathies; the close proximity of my own kind in my space makes me unusually uncomfortable, as though I am naked. Perhaps it is because the invader is Aramia. I hope she doesn't think that time has healed my wounds.

“You are going to be very angry with me for this, but I am afraid it is unavoidable.”

He looks up at me, his eyes still a tangle of warm feelings. He has now made several small, phosphorescent flowers in his patch of grass. He pokes at them hesitantly and delights when he discovers that his touch makes complicated patterns in their light. I crouch down next to him and in one fluid motion, pull him up over my shoulder, like a bag of grain. As soon as he leaves the ground, his garden turns black and shrivels. He kicks his feet at me and strains out toward them as I walk forward, cursing as they crumple and turn back into the whiteness.

“Why?...Making life!”

“You weren't creating anything, moron. This is your imagination. Nothing you make in here will ever be tangible.”

“Real.”

“No, it's not.”

“You.”

“Yes, I am real. This is just where I've been hiding out while the vermin have been scurrying around in our head.”

“Mine.”

“Not any longer. Come on, we're here.”

As we reached the end of the vast whiteness, in the distance a polished copper door appeared on the horizon. As soon as it became visible, it slid forward to meet us. I dropped my guest on the ground and he gave a soft wheeze.

“I am always stealing your breath, aren't I?” I mused, grasping him by the collar of his ratty shirt and pulling him to his feet. “Pity I cannot share with you in this sensation. If you allowed me to, I probably would treat you a little better.”

“Fuck you.”

“O-ho-ho! Someone has found his backbone at last.”

The trance of this place still lingered in him, but he was trying to force his arms to swing at me. Instead, he staggered around doing a wonderful impersonation of an inebriated half-wit, complete with drool and slurred profanities.

“Come now, Hylen, it was a compliment. You mustn't get so worked up. It's not good for our body. I plan on living a long life in it.”

“You are a parasite, just like Rory said.”

I felt the muscles around our jaw tighten. “Do not quote petulant children to me. I have my own to deal with. Enough of this foolishness; let us journey on.” I gestured toward the door. “You have to open it.”

“Why?” He fell to the ground, his legs twitching wildly beneath him.

“Because it is taboo for one of my kind to go beyond this point without permission. I have to be led in by my vessel.”


I wondered if he could hear the resentment in my voice or see it flash in my eyes, as I felt it did. The idea od being led anywhere by someone like him was repulsive.

“Where are we going?” he asked cautiously as he tried to rise to his feet. I extended my hand to him once again. He grasped it solidly this time, without any hesitation or doubt. I knew regardless of my answer, he was going to take me.

“We are going to time travel.”

Friday, September 24, 2010

Sniffling

Every time I go out my front door in the morning, I regret it. The world seems to get a little more disgusting every day. Not in the way you might think, like seeing prostitutes or homeless people fight over a slab of meat or riding the murder mystery car (I think they are commonly referred to as "public buses."). No, I am talking about the change in seasons.

Don't get me wrong: I love Fall. It is probably my favorite season, what with all the crunchy leaves and grey skies. It just makes me want to drink a latte and read a book or hold a warm, fuzzy animal. Every year I look forward to the days when it rains and the dirt makes the special good smell, which I refer to as "rain yums."

However, the Fall and Winter season also bring with them the most disgusting thing in th world--colds. Yes, colds. The cold itself isn't disgusting, it's the side-effects. I don't mean the excessive snot, big red nose, runny eyes, or general cold induced stupidity (it's a real thing). No, I mean people who, rather than be an adult and blow their nose, sit there a sniffle like crazy.

Allow me to elaborate. Baseball Joe, who sits next to me in my calculus class,like to go for long early morning runs. As a result, he is always very sweaty and generally gross. In the Fall season this is extra true because not only is he dripping with his on sweat, but he is also covered in a layer of fog. This fog also infiltrates his nasal airway, stimulating the excess production of mucus to keep the water balance right in there or something. He is also being exposed to colder morning temperatures, which makes him more likely to catch a cold (which he now has)

As Baseball Joe sits next to me, I am very aware of his affliction. How so? Well, he leans his head down on his left arm and inserts a Vick's vapor inhaler into his nose and really lets lose on it. It's utterly shocking how much he can inhale for being so congested. While I am in awe of his lung capacity, he then proceeds to "clear" his throat by loudly hacking and gargling the mucus which is now stuck to his tonsils. This goes on for about 40 seconds. Sometimes it goes on while I am eating a banana. When it is that latter, time seems to slow down and the sound of his actions are magnified by about a million. I feel as though I need to pierce my ear drums with knitting needles to keep from vomiting. I have to stop eating my banana, which without fail turn a hideous brown color before I can safely resume eating it. When the ordeal is over, he looks at the people around him and snuffles out "Sowwie. I had uh culd."

Really, I couldn't tell. You do such a good job of hiding it, what with the nostril shaped Vick's inhaler you take hits off of every five minutes.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Battle of the Calculus Seating Chart

Every day while most of you are tucked up all cozy in your beds, I am dragging myself out of mine (at 6) so I can get to class on time (9:30). No, I don't take an obscenely long time doing my hair in the morning; I have a 45+ minute commute to Ukiah everyday. I actually leave the house at 7:45, go pick up my boyfriend, and then finally leave at 8:30. It's arduous, especially when I know on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays I am going to have to endure a form of psychological torture.

I always thought that in college I would be able to waltz in and out of class at my leisure and sit wherever I wanted (mostly in corners or the back). This is true of all my classes...except one. My calculus has an implied seating chart that most decent people respect; it formed the first day of class and everyone has been obeying it. The first day is the only day I have ever cared to be on time for because I have the pick of the "blenders" (seats at the back of the class that allow you to just kind of blend in with the wallpaper so the teacher never bothers you). Unfortunately for me, someone decided that jocks need to be educated.

No offense meant to people who go to school and play a sport; that's all fine and dandy. But, let's face it, there are people who play a sport and go to school. These people have infiltrated my classes; they slow the rest of us down because they miss about 75% of the classes because they are off "being athletic" (sleeping in). Normally, I wouldn't care; I'd just put my head down and do my homework in class. As I mentioned before, my choice of blender has been infiltrated. On my right sits my friend the wall; he is comfy to lean my head against and he supports our pal the air conditioning/heater. To my left sits a guy I call "Baseball Joe" because in the time since we have been in the same math class (a year and a half) I have yet to learn his name. He looks like Viktor Krum minus the attractiveness; I guess you could call him potato shaped. He has a tattoo of the American Major League Baseball logo on his arm.
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Every time I see it, I want to ask him how drunk he was or how much he got paid to get it on such a visible body part. All these things are unoffensive, if not entertaining but Baseball Joe has one repulsive habit: he chews tobacco.

In my ear

All class long.

Every day.

He smells like a third world country; he runs before he comes to class, so he is caked in smog and sweat. As if these aromas weren't appealing enough, he decides to throw chewing tobacco on top. Okay, okay--I know; these are bearable offenses for le blender extraordinaire. But one thing is not endurable. He spits his tobacco liquid into a tin can that makes this little "ping" sound every time he spits in it. So, all I hear for two hours is: "So, if the limit doesn't approach" "ping" "thing then it doesn't" "ping" "ist. You see, techincal" "ping" "speaking, if some" "ping" "approaches infinity it doesn't have a li" "ping."

The kid next to him wears hearing aides. Every day before class starts, he turns off the one in his right ear and cranks up the left one. How I envy the hearing impaired sometimes. While I am listening to baseball-zilla chomp his way to mouth cancer, he can learn calculus.

Monday, we had a test; Monday, my boyfriend decided to take an extra long shower and made us late. Monday, war was declared.

As I ran in just in time and headed for my normal seat, a tiny girl ninja-ed her way in front of me and sat in my seat. Well, haha--joke's on you. Enjoy not being able to focus on anything for the next hour and a half as you are serenaded to "Tobacco swill in F." But, sadly, there was a rather attractive looking Indian girl in Baseball Joe's usual spot. As further proof God hates me, the only spot left was in front of my professor, next to Baseball Joe. Feeling slightly homicidal, I approaced the seat-stealer after class and kindly asked her to "please let me have my seat next time. I have such a hard time seeing the close to the board." (Lie). To which she responded "Not my problem, Baby." She called me Baby. Seriously. I have resolved to make her life horrible in that class. I haven't decided how yet, but I feel like Baseball Joe may be my ace in the hole. Stay tuned for the resultant warfare. This seat is too good to let go of so easily.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

When Good Food Rebels

Today I, like an optimistic fool, made a lunch for my boyfriend and I at 6:45 AM. Lots of things go on before 7 AM...many of them I have no control over (rain, genocide, burglaries--that sort of thing) but I have concluded that one of those things should not be the preparation of anything edible besides cereal or raw fruit. "Why?" you may ask. Well, this is why.

This morning, I stumbled into my kitchen at 6:30 like I always do--slowly and with much resignation. The meal of champions was anything that required minimal thought and cooking skills--toast. Insert bread, wait, flip bread over, wait, search for butter. The toast was so unremarkable in every way that I decided I should make myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with it for my lunch. I then went about my merry way with my morning ablutions, stopping occasionally to scare my cat away from the ham sandwich I made for my beloved.

Lunch rolls around. It is a bleak day--sky a skatter'd with clouds, trees creaking ominously in the wind. Not a good reception to your pb and j. After eating my food, I laid down in my car for a pre-physics nap. While I was just drifting off to dreamyland, my stomach made a sound that can only be described as sinister and I experienced a pain which can only be described as stabbing in my abdomen. "Fantastic," I thought as I felt the contents of my stomach curdle. "Nothing to look forward to except and hour a half of excruciating pain and physics."

I was correct on all accounts. Thankfully, when my teacher started going about sine and cosine, my stomach started to feel better. Thinking I was over the worst of it, I went to the library and read "Sideways" while I waited for my boyfriend to get out of his class (about 2 hours). "Sideways" has a lot of long, descriptive narratives about wine--focusing specifically on the smells. Fifty pages of "under-ripe pear", "blackberry", and "pungent gourmet cheese" later, I found my head sweating, my stomach rolling and and my legs shaking. I became paralyzed with fear when I realized I had to do the unthinkable: vomit in a public restroom trash can.

I don't know if you've ever been in this situation before, put public restroom trash cans don't smell very good. Probably the only thing that smells worse is the public restroom toilets. You get the distinct impression you weren't the fist person who regurgitated into the industrial tin spray painted receptical. Also, it is a very public place, which invites very loud public comments about your decency. Well, fuck you--I am vomiting.

After regaining control of my body and concluding that I couldn't fashion a clever disguise out of the contents of my purse, I went back to the library and took a nap on top of "Sideways."I awoke feeling renewed and pleasantly nausea free. I concluded I had been food poisoned by the strange jelly I put on my sandwich this morning. I should know better than to trust pink goo in a jar anyways.

When I got home today, I decided that toast would be a good choice on a still shakey digestive system. When I opened the cupboard, the wheat bread was missing. So, naturally, I yelled "What you guys throw away good bread for?" To which I got this response: "That bread wasn't any good. It has mold all over it." Horrified, I opened the trash can to see several slices of bread growing green mold on the bottom crust. I had ate four slices of fuzzy, moldy bread.

I have been betrayed by one of my favorite foods. I thought we had each other's backs, whole wheat. Why have you forsaken me? WHY?

I may never be the same again.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

"I was surprised and then I started ovulating."

Or: Why this Semester is Already Better than Last.

It's a whole 4 days into the Fall 2010 semester here in Hell (I mean...Ukiah. The two are practically indistinguishable now that summer has officially decided to begin at the end of August) and I can already tell this semester is going to be better than the last.

SO, what was the first indicator of this? At nine in the morning on Monday, I begrudgingly pulled myself to SSU classrooms and sat down in the back. After about five minutes, I realized I had gone to Linear Algebra rather than Calculus. I slunk out of the back door, but not before some kid held up a picture of The Fail Whale at me. If you don't know what The Fail Whale is, it looks like:

I know--this doesn't sound like a great start. However, it meant my math class wasn't in a cubby hole in a giant field of mud. My calc class actually meets in the science building with the comfy rolly chair and the nice, dim lighting with the nice, suspiciously asian-esque math teacher with the deep soothing voice. It passed in a sleep filled haze with the occasional interruption of my teacher talking about piecewise functions. All in all, a perfect morning.

After that I ate some health food store vegan 'ranch' salad and a Naked juice that was the color and texture of bile that had live algae in it (I know, it sounds heartily disgusting but trust me--it is wonderful. The ranch tastes just like ranch and the juice tastes like kiwi). This was about all I could stomach because of the scorching heat bearing down on me like an obese...obese thing (you find a poetic simile on five hours sleep).

After throwing some popcorn at disgruntled ducks at Lake Mendocino, it was off to Biology 250, where I was reunited with about half of my chem classmates from last semester (though, admittedly, it was the not so funny half) which was nice. My teacher is close to being a midget and has short curly hair. I have to stifle the urge to ask if she represents the lollipop guild or pick her up and just shake her until she pops every time I see her. That is how adorable she is. Cuteness aside, she is probably the most articulate lecturererererer I've had at any school, UC included. She explain everything in a clear way without making you feel like you are a moron ( when explaing why adrenaline only does one thing she blurted out, "Nobody ever says "I was surprised and then I started ovulating.""). I really look forward to having her for the rest of my AA bio.

The next day I had physics. The last time I took physics I got a D and several hours of emotional scarring over a mousetrap powered vehicle. I wasn't optimistic to say the least. My teacher came to class five minutes late and that is when I saw that his hair was longer than mine (about a foot longer). He explained that he went to Santa Cruz with Marcus (my chem prof). If you know Marcus, you know he is a really nice, cheery guy who can be your friend. He's also very useful in lab. But as far as lecturing goes, he's rather all over the place. Well, Tim explained to me sine for the first time in any way that has ever made sense in six year of trig exposure. And I was actually able to my physics homework all on my own.

It's totally refreshing to be in classes that actually feel like they are worthwhile. I'm super psyched for meeting new people and actually enjoying physics (something I never thought possible). I can only hope your semester goes this well. Be envious.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Why You Won't Hear from me on Saturday Nights.

Because the nerdiest of all my addictions is going to be beamed into my television (well, it's a toss up between cats and this for nerdiest). I will no longer have to watch old episodes online or read some truly pathetic fanfics (please, learn the difference between there, their and they're.).

For all the normal and much cooler than me people, tonight new episodes of Bleach are airing (at 1 AM). If you don't know what Bleach is, it's a wildly popular manga that was turned into an anime series. If you don't know what manga or anime is, then you should probably stop reading here; if you go on, you'll just think I'm mentally unstable.

If you've never known the true bliss of the euphoria induced by watching a half hour of animated crack, you've really been missing out. Sure, when people bring up anime the first thing that comes to mind is pimpled teenaged asian boys wearing beanies that have kitty cat ears sewn to them. Or those cool people who go to Cosplay and dress up like this:
Photobucket (I call him Sailor Type 2 Diabetes)
or this:
Photobucket (Somewhere, Tite Kubo is weeping).

Okay, okay, there are a fair amount aesthetically challenged and strange people who like anime. And, yes, I suspect all these people have very active Second Life accounts (if you don't know what Second Life is, it's pretty much a game that is exactly what it sounds like.) A sad fact remains, however. The majority of anime/manga stories have about twenty times more depth to them than most major US television shows."What going on with "Who's-Humping-Who Hospital-Drama-Land", Dear" "Well, generically attractive male doctor is now dating token female asian doctor, and bad boy doctor made a house out of candles for anorexic moody doctor and Katherine Heigl has cancer. CODE BLACK!" (Literally every "Gay's Anatomy" reference I know from either Cory Geraths or The Soup. Please, ABC, stop giving these 'actors' spin-off shows.)

Sure, most animes plots are rather...different to the average viewer (catching adorable monsters and making them fight for you, japan is ruled by great britian and your kinda super pissed about this--good thing you have magical mind control powers, I see ghosts and occasionally have to venture into the spirit realm to have epic battles for some cause (usually rescuing people who should be more skilled than they are, but...anyway), I just want to bake cakes but I have to kill evil spirits with an exploding box, I'm half demon but I want to be a whole demon--also I have what look suspiciously like kitty cat ears on my head. If you can guess all of these, you and me need to hang out a lot more), but once you get past the initial weird of the anime universe the show is taking place in, you realize that most of the characters have about three different back stories driving their actions. THe more familiar you get with the characters, you realize that these sub-plots aren't just a clever way to keep you interested in the show; they were choice the author made about his characters because (shock) they love them and care about them (in an authorly way). The voice-actors portraying these characters bring more emotion and depth to them than most classical actors do, giving them three dimensionality. After awhile, you don't really notice the show is animated (even though they are really beautifully drawn and colored).

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go sew some kitty cat ears on to my beanie.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Bad Prescription

The more I'm at home during the morning hours, the more I find myself being assaulted by daytime television doctors offering me "the best information" on various medical maladies. Like yesterday, for example, I turned on Doctor Oz to try to take a nap and they were devoting a whole day to "diseases that specifically target women." Well, as I'd say about 80% of their audience is women who want to get into Doctor Oz's scrubs, this was a good idea( to bored husband: "Why don't you care about my health as much as Mehmet?" ).

First up on the list of horrible things I will surely die of was heart disease. Don't get me wrong, I don't find heart disease comical at all and it is the number one killer of women these days, but seriously--does anyone not think there is going to be serious ramifications from eating KFC three times a day (extra krispy my arteries, Colonel!) What advice did the good doctor give out? Exercise and eat right, and as if this was some amazing new revelation, a member of the audience pulled out a piece of paper a wrote it down.

This seemed to be the bulk of the advice from everything to cancer prevention and stretch marks (how are stretch marks a disease again?). What really took the cake though was the advice given out on uterine fibroids. There were several women who suffered from fibroids as guests who spoke about their various struggles with them, specifically how having a hysterectomy has affected their lives. On this note, Doctor Oz started on about how gynecologists try to push hysterectomies on their unsuspecting victims...oops, I meant patients...before they go off and tie young girls to rail road tracks and twirl their diabolical looking mustaches. Basically, he told millions of women that hysterectomies were barbaric and now completely medically useless for this disease. While I agree that a hysterectomy shouldn't ever be the first thing done to treat fibroids, I don't think anybody shouldn't consider them an option if they are in serious pain.

For example, one women was 45 years old and she had a hysterectomy when she was 43; she couldn't leave the house because within 15 minutes of standing, she'd be drenched in blood. She spent all of her days in bed. And all she cared about was that she knew she was never going to be able to have a child again. Sorry, to break it to you lady, but if the surgeon didn't render you barren nature was going to. She already had three grown children, did she really want to go through the trials of having a new born in her 40's? At this point, Doctor Oz commented on how "the uterus was germane to a woman's identity as a woman." I think a man knows about as much about what is "germane" to my identity as I do about what is to his. I am not defined as female because I can spit out a child. I see myself as female because of a number of experiences and my organs, not one or the other. If I got breast cancer I had to have a full mastectomy, I wouldn't view myself as a hideous monster between genders.

If you're in pain, if you're in danger of dying, use your brain--remove yourself from that situation. Sentiment aside, you won't be a woman if you're dead. You'll be decaying in the ground because you couldn't part with an organ that wasn't necessary for your life. Of course, it would be a depressing thought to me if I heard that I was going to o through menopause in my 20's and never have a child organically, but I would still be alive. I could make some child's life infinitely better by adopting it and giving it a home.

That being said, Doctor Oz does do some good. He alerts the general populace of housewives about nutrition (what? I can't eat 3 grams of fiber everyday and be okay? Whole grain pasta it is!) and encourages dialogue about medical conditions, even the hideously embarrassing ones (ie: "why does my belly button ooze this bad smelling yellow goo?" Real question an audience member asked. No joke).But, really--be smart, ladies. Make the right decision for you based on your situation and not what some man on television tells you.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Alejandro: an Homage to The Monster

I've been listening to a lot of Lady Gaga lately. Why? Because it doesn't require too much thought and is generally pleasant to listen to, not to mention awesome to car dance to (try to resist, I dare you). Today I decided to watch the video for “Alejandro” for the first time because I was trapped in a house with moody animals and had nothing better to do. If you haven't seen it, here is the link—but be warned: it is sexually explicit and generally weird. If you are offended by it, please don't come crying to me about it.

I think what some of this video may be portraying is the violence and serenity of sex. Or it may just be a shocking bit of performance art. Whichever it is, those are some sublime dancing Nazis. The pure weirdness of this video inspired me to write this brief little homage to Lady Gaga. And before someone gets all upset at me for using religious imagery here, I will say this: get over. It's just a story. Enjoy!


"Alejandro" inspired story

He dances like a whirling dervish; we all pull the marionette strings, yank him to and fro. We cheer for his fashionable epilepsy, our voices a prayer to god Eros, a din so loud it stirs the soul like a pentecostal gospel. This our religion now; the painted whore our preacher. We rise to our feet and put the gilded chalice to our lips and drink in the holy wine, filling our bodies with blessed delirium. The bliss of blind faith, of a destiny free of deviation, washes over us and we are saved—born again into this world of sweat, gyrations and passionate sighs. Let us never leave this moment for we rival Saint Teresa in our burning ecstasy. Let the stars in your innocent eyes guide us to the holy land so that we may worship at your feet, servants until the day we die. Be the temple in which we can place our hope and light our little candles, praying to one day be heard, to join your kingdom. Do say you'll let us pierce you with our silver daggers and bathe in your blood.

Until then, let me pull your strings to the breaking point and move you with the cruelty of divinity. The tension is too much; your tethers snap and lay limp in my hands, an empty thing that holds rapture no more. Spent and vacant, I leave you until you become a real boy.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Of Textbooks and Allergies.


Well, fellow college attendees, it is that time of year again, Time once more to round up all your spare change for over priced caffeinated drinks and slightly wilted, over-dressed and over-priced Schatz's Bakery salads; time to wake up a 6:30 in the morning (it exists? still?!) and drag your half asleep self into a calculus class and ponder the greater what if's in life (specifically: what if Issac Newton got a hematoma from the apple and died? what class would I be feigning interest in then?); time to stay up too late (11pm) and feel like a knowledge zombie the next day (when people ask you what the paper you're clutching to your chest is about, you'll respond, with a glazed look, "BRAINS!").

Yes, it is time for a new semester.

Just thinking about it has me all in a dither. It feels like summer break has lasted about three days and that I am just now getting used to sleeping in again. Oddly enough, three weeks ago I found myself wishing school would come so I could please have something to do.

Be careful what you wish for.

Perhaps the most depressing part of this whole debacle is textbook shopping. It really make me long for the days of high school when the worst I had to endure was Ms. Hunt's accent to get my books, which were free unless I lost them or set them on fire. Now I am forced to pay $313.71 for glue and paper with tiny "smart" words written all over it. Worse still is that I know I will not be using half of my books more than 10% of the semester.

Oh, and did I mention that one of my SIX English texts was written by my English teacher? Not in the cool way either; it's not like this book is used 'round the country like Robin Russin texts. It's pretty much only at Mendo, which means this lady is either uber picky and snobby or an egomaniac. Lovely. Why do I always seem to have the best luck with English teachers? This is why I probably changed my major to Biology.

Enough of this dreary subject. For the past two-ish weeks, I have been babysitting two dogs and a cat. The experience has been comparable to watching three very needy children who follow you everywhere you go and scream whenever the wind blows without their say-so. I've been averaging about 5-6 hours of sleep a night because one dog licks incessantly while the other dog scratches itself every ten seconds, thumping the floor with his leg. Then the cat starts meowing like being outside the bedroom in utter torture; he gets progressively louder until, out of breath and pouty, he scratches at the bedroom door.

What have I learned from all this? I will never own a dog because their neediness makes me homicidal. Also, whatever the scratchy dog is allergic to/has I believe I am allergic to as well/have contracted, My scalp feels so itchy today it's as if there are about ten thousand fleas living beneath my skin. The more I itch it, the worse it gets, so I'm currently trying to ignore it by watching something more irritating--Doctor Oz. It's not going so well.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Here is a new short story I've done based on a section I had written from Halcyon told from the point of view of the protagonist Hylen. To clarify the dialogue taking place in this story: whenever Hylen and Rory are speaking to Aramia when she is inside the fox, it is done telepathically. The link between vessels and inhabitants was briefly touched upon in Halcyon part 2. Anyway, have fun reading the story and I hope you enjoy.

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Hylen

“Lay on the ground,” she commanded, pointing at a small patch of open grass. I hesitated. “What? Are you afraid you'll stain your clothes?”
Irritated, I dropped my backpack and lied in the still dewy grass. It seeped through my shirt and clung to my back like droplets of sweat. “Why am I doing this exactly?” I asked, trying to keep my discomfort from seeping into my voice.
“Because,” she said settling in next to me, “you can't keep sliding around so sporadically. Cero tries his best to keep you rooted, but you're becoming too much for him.”
I smiled inwardly. “I told you I was better than you.”
“In your wildest dreams,” Cero hissed.
“I'm sorry to interrupt your gloating, but he needs to be here for this too. Call him out.”
“Cero.”
We waited in silence.
“Well?” she said looking over at me. “Where is he?”
“I don't know; I've never tried summoning him before. He just sort of drops in when he feels like it.”
She sighed, her disgust so obvious it seemed to be written across her forehead. For someone who claimed to be as old as she did, she acted like a three year old. She closed her eyes and put her hands over them.
“Aramia.”
As soon as she uttered the words, a small red fox appeared from behind a tree. She carried a a dead mouse in her mouth and trotted with the pride only an animal could posses without feeling foolish.
“What do you want, Rory? This body is starving.”
“I'm trying to teach him how to call Cero.”
“So you didn't actually want me?”
“Do I ever?”
The fox dropped the dead mouse on the ground between Rory and I and settled down to her dinner. As she crunched through the bones, I was instantly reminded of the dream and the sound of the woman's bones being ground to dust. I flinched away from her.
She looked up at me, her muzzle covered in dirt and blood, her tongue hanging out. “What?”
Rory rolled her eyes at Aramia. “I know; she's revolting. When she's in that body, she refuses to eat anything but what it would naturally. Normally she latches on to me when she eats to try to convince me that consuming vermin isn't all that bad.”
“It's not going well.”
She smiled and patted the fox on the head. It purred. “It's a rare sound for this body,” she mused. “It means I'm...happy.”
“Well, now you've ruined it.”
The fox pawed at her arm, feigning anger. Seeing Rory with Aramia made me a little jealous. The first time Cero had materialized, he had tried to kill me. They seemed like old friends, not a drop of animosity between them. There was a gap between them though; Aramia could occupy any body she wanted and she chose the fox. She respected Rory's identity enough to give over her body to her. Cero seemed quite attached to me.
“Okay, okay; close your eyes, Hylen. Good. Now cover them with your hands, just like I did.”
“I feel exceptionally insane right now; just thought you should know.”
Rory made a little “tisk” sound under her breath. Her patience was wearing. “Be quiet. Now concentrate; think of the first time Cero revealed his true form to you.”
I sighed; this was pointless. I had done nothing since then but think of the moment he weaved together out of the shadows and landed on my bedroom dresser. In all that time, I had never once summoned him willingly. Not wanting to endure another bite from the fox, I tried my best to piece together the details of that night.
I had been dreaming about the fire. The window was closed and the full moon was throwing lacy shadows of tree branches on my wall. My head was buzzing softly and my eyes were unfocused. The sheets on my bed felt damp, probably from my sweat, and there was a painful dryness building in the back of my throat. Air was sticking in the back of my throat, refusing to enter my chest, as though thick iron ropes had been tied tight around my ribs. The wind wove the shadows together with mastery and purpose and before I could understand what had happened, I was looking into the luminous eyes of a great serpent.
“Are you there?” Aramia murmured, trying her best not to reorient me.
“Yes,” I said, forcing myself to be in my bed, to sit just as I had that night.
“Give me your hand,” Rory said softly.
I held my hand out to her; she laid her small, delicate hand on mine and pushed my arm down so that we contacted Aramia's back. Suddenly, I wasn't alone in my room. Aramia and Rory sat next to me, holding my hands. Aramia was not in her regular fox shape, but was rather mirroring Rory quite seamlessly. Cero looked back at me with his glowing eyes and asked me the same question he had been asking for the past month: “Can you hear my name?”
I opened my eyes, my hand still clutching Rory's. I hadn't noticed when I was sliding, but I was breathing frantically. The canopy of the trees overhead threw intricate patterns of shadows across our bodies and, for a moment, I wasn't sure if I was still in my memory or the present. My heart thumped wearily against my ribs, pounding out a message of surrender.
“Call him,” Rory commanded.
“C...Cero.”
We were again met with silence.
“That's not the first time you met him,” Aramia whined. “Try again.”
“Wait...a minute. You might...be able to do this all day, but I...can't.”
“Oh, suck it up,” Rory chided. “I walk everywhere even though it feels like I'm going to be crushed by this planet's gravity. You can suffer through another slide.” She reached over and covered my eyes. “Go again.”
I fought hard to remain in the grass, but she wouldn't allow it; she reached inside my mind and dragged me in with her. It was an uncomfortable feeling, very much like when Cero first made me lose consciousness in the street. It was like diving into unfathomably deep water; my ears filled with a dull hum, my eyes were unable to see anything other than weak outlines and colors, my body became impossibly light. The deeper we descended together, the darker things became. When we had arrived in my memory, everything was dark and silent.
“This is the deepest depth,” Aramia said. I turned to find her in the vast darkness. “I'm in my own form now; I can't hide down here.”
I followed the sound of her voice for what seemed like a very long time. As I wandered through my mind, I would sometimes stumble across some long overlooked memory; I would linger there until I felt her growing impatient with my sentimental longing. Eventually, I found her sitting with Rory, both of them looking positively bored with my memories.
Aramia was a head shorter than Rory and considerably lighter in color. She had large, lamp like eyes that reminded me of Cero. She was wearing a flowy white dress that seemed as fluid and soft as the white caps on waves in the harbor. Her hair was long, wavy, and the color of the noon sun. Her body was delicately shaped and small. She smiled at me; it was a sweet and innocent thing. She was the epitome of female grace.
“Thank you,” she said modestly.
Rory rolled her eyes. “Think a little quieter, Hylen. Her opinion of herself is high enough already. If it gets any more inflated she may float back up to the surface.”
Aramia shot Rory a glare unlike any I had seen before. Her face remained soft and gentle, but her eyes seemed to burn bright, fueled by venom. Rory brushed it off as though she had seen it a hundred times before, sticking out her tongue in a crude, childish way. Aramia shook her head in fake disgust.
Rory rose; in this place, she dressed very plainly, free of her normal opulence.
“Opulence, huh? I never thought of my style as opulent; flashy maybe.” She walked over to me and ruffled my hair like my mother did when she thought I was being 'precious.' Instinctively, I slapped her hand away. Taken aback, she hesitated a moment before returning the slap on my arm much harder than I thought possible or polite. “Come on. We've gotta keep looking.”
“Um,” I said, looking around at the vast emptiness, “where?”
“Think of something,” Aramia said, wiggling her feet back and forth. “That's how this place works. It's pure memory.”
I crossed my arms and closed my eyes, trying to think of when I first met Cero. As I flicked through my memories, I came back to the day I fainted in the street. The image of the small, golden snakes working themselves into the double helix danced in front of me. There was no feeling of wonder or even fear when I gazed at them anymore. It had become part of my past; there was nothing new to discover here.
“Move on,” Rory directed.
I let us float in darkness once again. It was an odd feeling, knowing that this place was only as stable as I allowed it to be. I could yank us back into the grass any moment I wanted.
“No, you can't,” Cero taunted. “You're abilities are still too dull to even reach this place without help.”
When he spoke to me this time, he wasn't a distant voice in my head; here he was as real and solid as Aramia was. If I wanted to find him, all I'd have to do is search the indefinite space of my memory to find him; it wasn't much comfort, but it was something to pour faith into. He was real here, tangible.
“Oh-ho-ho! Figured it out did you? Well, Yuri, your little fox wanted to be found; she was tamed centuries ago. My spirit has never been broken, not by any who I have possessed, and they were all considerably more talented than you. It was rather sad to see them age, they were such young, delicate things when we bonded; when I consumed them, they were practically dust already, no flavor or spirit left, not even the will to fight me remained in them.
“No, boy, I think you will not find me, but if you do manage to uproot me from this place do not think you are safe from my influence like Aurora is. I will never submit this body to you fully. Some part of me will always live in you.”
Rory winced at the use of her full name. “Who said you could use my name, Cero? I see you do share your name with us, not even Hylen.”
“He doesn't have a real name anymore,” Aramia said softly. She cast her eyes downward and focused intently on her toes, trying to keep her emotions hidden. “When he was cut-off from Halcyon, he left his old identity behind. He chose Cero because he 'zero's' his host out; he feeds on them over their life span and when their will to fight disappears and they submit to him, he reduces them to nothing and moves on, like a parasite.”
“Old age has made you so idealistic,” Cero groaned. “And I thought you were insufferable before.”
As he became more and more irritated with the us, I could feel myself pulled forward. As Aramia continued to lecture Cero on the nature of their existence, the darkness began to subside; all around me I could feel a gentle warmth; it enveloped me like a cocoon. My eyes blinked into focus and I found myself peering into the ethereal morning light filtering through my bed sheets. I took a deep breath to steady myself; all the reorientations of up and down were making me nauseous. In the distance, I could hear my mother barking out orders to the morning cooking staff. We were expecting three new guests on the morning ferry.
The morning ferry. That had been where I was heading when I fainted in the street. I shook off the urge to go back to that moment once again, rooting myself to this joyous moment. It felt as though this morning happened a thousand years ago, but in reality it had only been a three weeks ago. My life, what had happened to it? I used to spend hours wrapped up in my sheets, not a single care in the world. I hadn't slept in my bed in over a week; I hadn't had a real shower in longer. So, lingering in these fleeting moments wasn't strained or even difficult; I longed to hold on to them forever.
I can hear my mother calling me down for breakfast and my mouth moves independent of my brain, shouting back an irritated “Alright, alright!”. “No, no,”I pleaded as my feet propelled me out of my bed and down the stairs. “Let me stay here.” The more I tried to deny the flow of my memory, the faster it seemed to move. Before I knew it, I had my hand on the door knob, my hat hanging awkwardly in my face.
As I opened the door, the wind whipped rushed past me. Funny, I didn't think it was a particularly windy day, but I guess it had been. The rich taste of sea brine and moss filled my mouth as I gasped from the cold; it hadn't been cold that day. As I stepped out the door, I felt a cold hand grab my wrist. Without warning, I found myself being yanked back inside; however, it wasn't my home. It wasn't anywhere.
Before me I saw a a vast expanse of whiteness. It was indescribably bright and for a moment, I forgot that I hadn't entered this space willingly and simply marveled at the angelic light. “So, you've managed to find me,” a clear, bright voice whispered in my ear. The sound of his voice broke the hypnotic spell of this place. “Don't be frightened, boy. I do not wish to consume you yet. We've only just met, after all.” His hand still clamped to my wrist like a vice; with surprising strength, he turned me toward him. “Look at me,” he commanded.
I glanced up for the first time into the face of Cero.
“Not quite what you were expecting?” he asked.
“N-No. Not at all.”
Before me stood a small black haired man. His face was as beautiful as Aramia's, but distinctly more masculine. It seemed to be peppered with scars, the remnants of long forgotten battles. Most prominent of all his wound was a long, pink, jagged scar on his right cheek that ran to his jawline. Where once two large moonlit orbs had been there was now simple green eyes which stared back at me with cool indifference.
“Come,” he beckoned, extending a long white hand to me. “We have a much to discuss.”

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Neglect

Suki

I'm sorry I have been neglecting you, my dear little blog (not as much as Regina is). There is a lot of distracting things in the summer time. I'm sure you understand. You are off having adventures with all the people reading you.

Anyway, the primary reason I didn't write any blogs these last few days was a broken swamp cooler. My laptop puts out a lot of heat; with another computer in the room, the combined heat is a little sickening, plus I start sweating like a whore in church.

Thankfully, the swamp cooler has been repaired and not a moment too soon. It was getting dire up in here; taking two showers a day was really wrecking havoc on my hair, puffiness wise. It wasn't cute.

It's funny how in the summer I long for the rainy, overcast days of fall and winter. But when winter rolls around all I can do is bitch about the humidity and what it does to my hair ("WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER STRAIGHTENING IT!!!??"). I go through my rebellious phase where I where my hair in a ponytail everyday or hide it under this really hilarious ski hat (complete with little tie tassels and a pom-pom on the top); eventually I chop it all off. And then I wish it was long about a week later.

And somewhere around June, I start the cycle all over again. I tease, I iron, I heat...all verbs that imply stressing. I neglect my hair purposefully until it's so lifeless and beaten down, I have to cut off about a foot of it. And I don't even donate it to those bald cancer kids.

I'm neglectful hair...possessor? owner? Whatever. I am bad to my hair. One day, I will wake up, and my hair will have all it's possessions packed in a little bag tied to a stick and it will say "We both know this isn't working out anymore," and it will walk out on me. Forever. And I'll have to wear a wig, like that over-botoxed piece of jerky from "The Real Housewives of Atlanta."
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Yikes.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Another Short

By Suki

I've been on a writing spree lately due to the large amount of positive feedback I've been receiving about Halcyon. This is a short story I wrote last night from the first person perspective. The story picks up where the last section ends, give or take a few events. I welcome any feedback you have to give on, positive or negative. Thanks for reading and enjoy.

Waking Up

Aramia

We've been floating out here in the ether between worlds for nearly a millennia, though it's hard to say how long anything lasts here. My vessel is at peace here, so I too am washed with the feeling of contentment.
As we float above the world, I can look down and watch the inhabitants of our island go about their lives. They look the same as they did when we left, but Halcyon has changed because of them. There are several roads that girdle the land and large barriers that separate the forests from the towns. They've found a way to manipulate their world to work for them in a way we could never have imagined.
I urge my vessel to open her eyes and look down with me at our home, but she doesn't respond. This place is difficult for her to stay awake in, but I think she doesn't really want to try either. She wants to stay in her dreams, remembering back to the days when the world belonged to us.
The currents around us were calm and I settled down on my belly, letting my tail curl around me so I could cushion my head on it. I spent most of my time peering down at the world below me; I didn't want to forget how beautiful life was there. The activities of the Halcyities, destructive though they may be, were fascinating to me. They had built wondrous machines out of ores they manipulated with fire; they had even conquered the sky! I wondered if anyone could sense us when they flew beneath our improvised hideout.
I felt many things when I looked down at Halcyon. It was jealousy mostly. I longed to feel the cool earth beneath my feet and to taste the air in the forests again. I had been urging her to wake for so long, but she shut me out, lost in some other time. I wondered if she was dreaming about being home again too; perhaps that's why I had this desperate need to leave this place.
When we first came to be in this place, when she was in her deepest thoughts, I could smell her memories. Some were from before we even met; they were cold and dank, like the sea cave where she used to play as a child. Most of them were of some other place I had never been with her; somewhere sweet and spicy, mixed with the smell of fish and open markets. It was a place where many gathered; I could smell all their essences mixing together. It was overwhelming to explore this place with her. I could smell things so much stronger than her that it made me nauseous to stay in this place with her for too long. Maybe this is why she picked this memory to hide things from me in, because she knew I would shy away from it.
It had worked; when I felt her coming back to that place, I'd disconnect from her. Now she was so close to being awake, I couldn't get back to her unless she let me in. I knew that would never happen. She was still angry with me after all this time.
As we passed over the little Boat Town, I saw a young man sitting on the docks, looking out over the water. He felt just like any other Soul, simple and kind, but I could feel something in my vessel react to his nature. She wanted to know more about him; it was the first time in over a hundred years she had even shown an interest in the real world. I stood up and stretched, yawning as though her needs were a trivial matter to me while trying to hide the excitement in my body. I settled across her chest and began telling her all about this man.
He was smaller than most men on the island and his skin was considerably lighter than it should be for a native, but he smelled of the woods in a way only a True Son could. His hair was long, dark, and shaggy. His hands were mostly callus.
“But what is he like?” she asked, whining slightly.
I smiled; she was almost back.
He's frowning. It makes little lines around his mouth. He's slouched forward; I'm afraid he may slide off into the sea if he sinks any lower.
“What sort of Mark does he have?”
The same one everyone in this little town does, but his is bright red. And there's some...smudging at the bottom, like it was drawn on with ink and he touched his wrist to something. The life ribbon's a little turned, like it was meant to be seen as three dimensional.
“Move off me; I want to see him for myself.”
I sat up and looked into her eyes as she opened them for the first time since she created this place. They were watery; the light was probably excruciatingly bright to her. After watching her wipe away her tears, I pressed my head to her forehead to welcome her back. She pushed me off her like I was nothing.
“I hate when you do that! It so...fox-like.”
I rolled over onto my back, letting my tongue loll out of my mouth. “Is this better?”
“No, not really,” she said sourly.
Rocking back onto my stomach, I stretched my legs out in front of me and rested my head on them so I could be comfortable during our analysis of the man. I could hear her struggling to force her legs to move; she hadn't anticipated the toll that this long rest would have on her body. I could feel my muscles pulling stiff joints, forcing them to move again. I shook it off, trying to remain disconnected from her until the pain passed and focus solely on the man on the dock.
There was something off about him that I hadn't noticed before. My body ached with the pull of dry skin, so brittle it could snap. He seemed to be surrounded by an odd sense of gloom, but emitting such a bright light from his being. My lungs seemed heavy, still filled with the smoke from that day. He definitely didn't have the complexion of a native islander.
“Aramia, I know this is difficult for you, but do you think you could shut up for a second. It's impossible to focus with your thoughts running through my head.”
I sighed. She was always like this after she slid. Age, it seemed, did not bring wisdom to our race. I felt a ripple of relief run through my muscles and into my bones; I was finally on my feet.
“It took you long enough.”
Our movement was still stiff, but our body was responding quicker than it had when it first woke up. She was surprised to see that I was still living inside the fox's body when hers was now open.
“I'm rather fond of this one. It's oddly comfortable in here.”
“Whatever. If you're going to wear that thing you're going to keep out of my brain.”
“Fine.”
She shuffled over to me and clumsily sank to her knees, her muscles quivering the whole way down.
“You see him?”
“Yes.”
“He's interesting, isn't he?”
“Yes. I wonder why he's so glum.”
“You can ask him yourself now that we can leave this place.”
“Who said anything about leaving? Why would I leave after I went through all the trouble of creating it?”
I cocked my head over my shoulder and looked into her eyes. “Because you've been sliding down there and now that you're back here, you can't stand not being home.”
She smiled. “I guess you know me better than I'd like to admit, Aramia.”
I stood up and she sighed; she had allowed herself to attach to my body when I moved to learn how to control her muscles. She was always looking for a quick fix. Walking around her with a deliberateness I detested, I settled next to her (much to her disappointment; she would have had me parade back and forth the next ten years to relearn walking). I nestled into the curve between her waist and hips and laid my head on her stomach.
“You're my oldest companion; I know you like I know myself.”
“I hate it. That's where I spent most of my time; in the years before I didn't know you. The time in my life when I was free.”
“I know. I'd let you go if I could. Locking us here won't separate us. You know that now.”
She sighed and let her hand slide onto my head. She ruffled my ears. “I guess we're stuck with each other.”
She rolled onto her stomach and peered down at her home. She held her head in her hands and kicked her legs in a childish way. “It's changed so much. Look at all those buildings! And those...”, she searched our mind for the word, “trains. To think that something so big could be moved by water!”
“They're an ingenious race. They bend everything to their needs.”
“What about him?” she asked pointing at our glowering subject.
“I suppose he does too.”
She frowned. “There's just something not right about him. Look! He's talking to himself now, in broad daylight.”
I focused in on him fully now that I wasn't dragging her around in my mind. Our minds combined and we began to search for his identity.
“Hylen,” we said together.
“That's an old sounding name,” she mused.
We looked deeper into the world around him, searching for further information about him.
“He's a...wilderness guide. What's that mean, Aramia?”
“He takes people on nature tours. He's an only child.”
“He lives in a inn ran by his mother.”
“His father was a diplomat from Main; that's why he's so much lighter than everyone else. He doesn't know.”
As we plunged ourselves deeper into the world around him, we became aware of an outside source trying to fight us off. Barriers were popping up around information we'd normally have no problem accessing. It was if an imperceivably vast wall had suddenly materialized around everything he had was connected to.
She continued to search for a way around the guard while I stayed on the perimeter seeking the one who fought us so strongly. Every where she went she encountered the vast wall; she was becoming frantic. What if we can't get out either?
“You are not welcome in my realm, Aramia,” a familiar voice called from beyond the wall. “Isn't two vessels enough for you? All I've got is this one and he's not very talented.”
“Oh no.”
We pulled out. We were both breathless from the struggle with the barrier. Her body was trembling from the strain of holding us here.
“Who...the hell...was that?” she said, gasping.
“It looks like there really is something special about that boy.”
“Answer,” she commanded.
I flinched at the order. “That was Cero and he's taken up residence in that boy. That's probably who he was talking to a minute ago.”
“Took up residence...you mean, he bonded to him, like you did to me.”
“Yes.”
She stood up, her legs almost crumpling beneath her weight.
“Come on,” she called to me. “We can't stay here forever.”
“Oh, now you want to leave? I swear, whenever there is a man involved your interest suddenly spikes.”
She bent down and picked me up. She held me tight to her body, perhaps a little tighter than necessary, and for the first time since we met, she spoke to me with her heart.
“We have to go because I can't let him be as lost as I was.”
The current that we had been drifting on in the ether slowed and dipped; she could feel it leaving her. The veil of haze began to dissolve and below us we could see the beautiful world we left behind so long ago. An anxiety rose in me that I had never felt before; we were finally waking up.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Halcyon (Part 2)


Because I am feeling generous, I'm posting a version of a part of Halcyon. I'm considering redoing the whole thing from the first person point of view. Anyway, here it is. Enjoy.

Part 2

Hylen awoke in sweat, gasping and clutching his chest. Since his injury two weeks ago, he had the same dream every night. He rubbed his eyes, the remainder of the wound above his left eyebrow moaned in protest. He hadn't slept the whole way through the night in nearly ten days. The dream was becoming more vivid by the night.
“Aramia,” he whispered. It was the first time he realized she had been saying a name. “Is it her name?” he thought. He turned every detail over in his mind a thousand times and as he sat in the dark of his room that night, he realized he never saw her face or really any other feature she possessed. All he knew of her was her voice; it was soft, lyrical, but also dark and exotic sounding. She had a strange halting to her speech, as though Common wasn't her first language.
He sighed. He was getting absolutely nowhere. What was the point in fretting about this woman? She probably didn't even exist and yet he couldn't stop himself from trying to glean one feature of her from his dreams. He turned to lie on his side, gazing out his window.
The branches of the trees were casting intricate webs of shadows on his window. The shapes were fuzzy and surrounded by a strange haze and Hylen was uncomfortably reminded of his concussion and the hours of delirium it had caused him. The wind blew the branches, making the shadows weave together like the threads of a blanket.
They rocked back and forth and as Hylen stared at them he could hear the rhythmic scraping of the loom urging the threads to form a new body. They took shape under the clear hands of the moon, moved by the arms of the wind; he was no longer gazing at the of the tree; instead he found himself gazing back into the iridescent blue eyes of a great serpent, its body entirely composed of the shadows that had only a moment ago painted his window panes.
The snake stretched out long and wrapped about the branches of the tree, it's great black body rippling, the shadows which composed it shifting to form the pattern of a boa constrictor formed from the shape of the leaves on the now bare tree. It's eyes shown with the unearthly glow of the moon, which had disappeared from the sky; the absolute darkness made his eyes seem even brighter,
“You've eluded me for a long time, boy,” it said to him, his voice silken and deep.
Hylen found himself unable to speak; his throat had suddenly became painfully dry. He clutched his neck trying to communicate that he couldn't answer. The snake bobbed it's head in acknowledgment.
“I know; I've taken it from you. Everything about you is, and has always been, mine.”
Silence fell between them. The snake let out a low hiss and began to descend from the tree; he passed through the window as though it were as immaterial as he was. He landed silently on Hylen's dresser and stared straight into his eyes.
“You cannot hear my name, can you?”
He gasped, trying to force his vocal chords to move. “Aramia,” he mouthed.
The snake laughed. “You think my name is Aramia? Don't be absurd! That's a woman's name. Oh, I see. You're having dreams now. How interesting you are. Judging by those disgusting black circles, I'd say you've been sliding for a few hours every night for some time; am I correct?”
Hylen nodded. “Sli..sliding?” he croaked.
The snake let out a series of high, airy hisses that Hylen understood to be hilarious laughter. “You mean to tell me,” he said wriggling with joy, “that you don't even know what you're doing?”
Hylen frowned and crossed his arms. First this unwelcome guest had invaded his room, stolen his voice and now he had the nerve to laugh at him. He pointed out the window, back toward the tree.
“I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm not usually this rude, but to think that you can master me is hilarious. You can't even master your own legs.”
“That's a low blow; let's see you control your legs when you pass out,” Hylen thought. “Who'd want to master something as bratty as you anyway?”
“I'm bratty now, am I? Children these days sure have loose mouths.”
“You can hear me?”
“Of course I can hear you. We share the same mind, after all. I'm in all your thoughts.”
“Great. I had no idea my body was a double occupancy model. I guess tomorrow I'll have to tell Danny that I'm still seeing snakes everywhere.”
“I'm no hallucination.”
“That sounds like something a hallucination would say.”
“Oh, shut up, Hylen.”
“Aha! That proves it. If you were real you wouldn't know my name.”
The snake let out a long hiss and shook it's head. “You are remarkably slow. I know your name because I live in you body.”
“Yeah, the bruised up part of my brain that's probably bleeding as we speak.”
The snake slithered forward, stretching out to Hylen's ear, his body now resting beside him. “You,” he whispered, his forked tongue flicking Hylen's ear, “are a fool. My power will never bow to you.” Hylen could feel the scales of the snake scrape on the bare skin of his neck, the chill of the shadows strangely pleasant. “I could crush you right now, if I wanted to, and there'd be nothing you could even hope to do to stop me,” he said as he pushed Hylen's chin up with his tail.
“But why waste my time on an insect? To eliminate one as weak as you would be meaningless.” He tightened around Hylen's neck, now letting his tail hang slack and dangle on his chest. His hands shot up instinctively, desperately trying ton pry the snake free of him as he could feel his head swim with a dizziness he was all too familiar with. As he closed his hands around the snake's muscular body, he could hear the rush of the ocean and a soft voice whispering in his mind.
“Don't fight it. Come with him.”
The snake coiled about his neck once more and Hylen choked and sputtered under the immense pressure. In his mind he struggled as hard as he did with his body to repel this foreign creature from tricking him into death. Though he fought with all his strength he could feel his hands beginning to slip and his eye lids waver.
And, as suddenly as he had attacked him, the snake released him, letting his body fall limply against the wall, his hands still clinging to where the snake had just been. Flicking his tongue in disgust, the snake climbed up the legs of his night stand. He coiled his massive shadowy body up like a pile of rope and stared back into Hylen's eyes.
“Pathetic,” the snake said.
He gave Hylen one last glance and slowly dissolved, the shadows drifting back on to the window, the shine returning to the moon. Hylen's whole body was shaking with fear, his hands still clutching his neck uselessly. He groaned; the hallucinations hadn't stopped at all either. He shook his head, hoping that if he shook hard enough he could uproot the image of the snake that now haunted him. What he wanted most of all was to not hear the call, the sinister voice of the serpent telling him to come die.
He let his head fall against the wall, regretting it instantly as it thudded in the precise place his still healing injury was. He closed his blood-shot eyes and took deep breaths, trying to steady his heart beat; he swallowed hard, forcing the last bit of dryness remaining in his throat to vanish. He was supposed to return to work tomorrow, but he wondered if he could make it through a whole day in his current state. Slipping in and out of reality wasn't exactly something people looked for in a wilderness guide.

On a Side Note...

Oh, in case you care about me and my nightmarish search for a non-bunny wallpaper (and who are we kidding, you do), I found this one (and I didn't even have to repress anything).
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If you know this show/these characters, you understand that this is me and Ryan in animated form.